When we started this journey, it was a jump moment. Jump… and trust the Lord to hold on to us during the free fall. I heard it over and over when we started out “By faith Abraham, when called to go to a place he would later receive as his inheritance, obeyed and went, even though he did not know where he was going.” Hebrews 11:8(emphasis mine). We had no clue when we left Texas, just a general idea of kind of what to do next. My only certainty – my only prayer – was that somehow, He was going to make it all happen, make it work, for His Glory.
“From Him, and through Him and to Him are all things. To Him be glory Forever. Amen” Romans 11:36
Just today, while reading online, the next verse in Hebrews hit me. How, in all the times of reading in the last year and a half, did I miss it?!
“By faith Abraham, when called to go to a place he would later receive as his inheritance, obeyed and went, even though he did not know where he was going. By faith he made his home in the Promised Land like a stranger in a foreign country; he lived in tents, as did Isaac and Jacob, who were heirs with him of the same promise. For he was looking forward to the city with foundations, whose designer and builder is God.” Hebrews 11:8-10 (NIV)
How?! How have my eyes not seen, my lips not read? All this time! Pieces start to come together in my head.
I painted For His Glory on a rock in the beginning to be a visual reminder of why and how. This, all of this, is to bring Glory to Him. Faded and chipped now, it still rings true. Only now the rock, our visual reminder, has grown to be a home. He has and is working amazing things, weaving our testimony, cementing His goodness, His Providence in our hearts through this physical home.
“Go up to the hills and bring wood and build the house, that I may take pleasure in it and that I may be glorified, says the Lord” Haggai 1:8
We are human and are only capable of doing so much. At some point we have to raise our hands, give it to Him to work and keep the hands open to receive His Blessing. I don’t think all the hardships have been simply to point out our humanness, our inability, our weaknesses, our limits – but to stress HIS divinity, HIS ability, HIS strength, HIS limitless. Every need, down to the smallest thing, has been provided. We step in faith, do something – as small as it may be – and trust that He will provide what is needed.
“Unless the Lord builds the house, those who build it labor in vain.” Psalm 127:1
There was a while when I simply felt we were a charity case – Mr. was jobless for a majority of the first year we were out here. We literally did not have the money to pay our meager bills let alone build. We couldn’t do anything for ourselves. I felt embarrassed at times, pretending and acting as if everything was fine and we didn’t need anything. Then humbled and so thankful when unspoken needs were met. Satan was screaming “look what you can’t do” while the Lord was gently whispering “trust in me”. Somehow, that entire year, the bills were paid and we were able to build a house – foundation, first floor, second floor, roof, outside sheathing and exsulation. A house in the dry! All without us asking, but by God working through people. People that knew what we are doing and wanting, offering to help.
“And my God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus” Philippians 4:19
Let me try to list some His amazingness –
- The purchase of the land – long story, weaved from years ago, allowed us to purchase it with no down payment.
- 11 acres – all regulations, inspections and building codes stop at 10 acres – we didn’t know that until after we purchased the land or off grid would not have been possible
- The lumber – the majority of it donated – extra people had lying around with no need, some reclaimed, some purchased and gifted specifically for a purpose
- Knowledgeable people – the people that organized the first work weekend to get us a good jump start, the contractors that helped with the foundation and first wall, how to do the second story and roof, people to show us how to do the stairs, others with the roof
- The people willing to give up time to just be extra hands even though they, like us, had no clue what we were doing
- All those “little” things that I hate to call “little” because of the hugeness of them at the time of receiving and when all combined – perfect amount of the right roofing membrane found on the roadside for free, perfect amount of tiles in lovely colors for the bathroom (free!), perfect amount (and beautiful!) wood flooring, perfect (matching!) windows at deeply discounted prices
- Even as recently as providing heat (a life changer!), natural stones for the hearth and kitchen, glass for solar needs
- And that’s not even mentioning our personal needs – clothing, Christmas gifts, weekly living needs
When people ask how we can keep going on like this, I want to ask how can we not? How can we not trust that He will continue to provide, to finish what He started? How can we discount all that He has done to get us this far? How can we walk away from all these physical reminders, this proof- the Word brought to life! – of His blessings and providence? He has a plan. He has a reason. I can’t wait to see what He plans next!
“For every house is built by someone, but the builder of all things is God” Hebrews 3:4