Do Not Lose Heart

Wow have we been busy busy!

Our time in a “powered house” is coming to an end.  Its been way sweet of the InLaws to let us ride out winter with them, but I think its safe to say everyone is ready to get back to “regular programming” now that its warming up.

So yesterday the younger ones and I got most of our things packed up and went up to the house… and just sat.  I needed that, to refocus, to clear my head. 

See, a few weeks ago, for the first time since we started this adventure, I was done – “just sell the land/house and move into a 2 bedroom rental in a crappy part of town” kind of done.  Despite all the setbacks we have experienced I was set – with the Lord’s help, we were going to get this done, one way or another.  Never faltering in my belief, even when the naysayers were the only voices around, when nothing was going according to our (very general) plan – I was willing to give up all our other “things” except the land, I never lost hope.  The Lord gave this desire, He provided for this desire over and over.

And then I did lose hope.  And that scared me.

I let all those negative thoughts come forward.  Instead of ignoring them and standing on Faith, I not only thought them – I gave them weight and authority.  I pondered on them.  Then I spoke them. Multiple times.

And then Mr. reminded me why we set out on this adventure.

We’ve tried the “typical American” life and it didn’t help us towards our goals.  And going back wouldn’t help either.

It’s hard to go against the grain.  It’s hard to have this unexplainable desire that makes sense to a very few.  To live free.  Free of debt payments, free of city utilities (and their accompanying requirements and bills), free of the obligatory “9-5 with benefits and retirement”, free of “gotta get more” syndrome. Free to be together, now, when it is most critical for our children’s development.  Free to have a simple life focused on things that matter to us.  And if the last 18 months have taught us anything – its that we need way less than even we thought.  Now that’s saying something from an already simplistic focused family!

Hindsight is 20/20.  Had we known it would take this long, that we would have so many obstacles we would have done things differently.  Not much differently, but just enough to make a notable difference and make it easier for us (and in turn, our families LOL).  Like buying a bus or camper to live in instead of tent camping and staying with family during the extremes.

But we didn’t know. And we learned a lot along the way.

And now we are this { } close to seeing the first part of our dream accomplished.

Galatians 6:9
Let us not lose heart in doing good, for in due time we will reap if we do not grow weary.

He brought us to this for a reason.  With renewed focus, we have been pushing to finish up all those little things in preparation for the next big leaps in construction.  God willing.

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Do Not Lose Heart — 6 Comments

  1. I grew up in a house under construction, I think my mom had many of those "done" moments. They bought a 100yr old farmhouse and gutted it from the ground up. All of my memories are wrapped around leaking roofs, sawdust, and drywall. I thought I would never take on such a project when I grew up but the older I get the more I remember it with fondness. Hang in there! I love watching your

  2. Thank you so much for keeping it real. I just wanted to encourage you and to lift you up in agreement prayer. "Let us not lose heart…"

    We had our perc test done today for our septic tank and it did not go as we would have liked it to which will ultimately cost us more money than we really have at this time. But we know it will work out in the end. We will NOT grow weary. <

    • Oh no!! 🙁 How upsetting! Never a dull moment while building, huh 😉

      It *will* work out – the Lord has gone ahead of you, He knew this was coming – and He will *abundantly* bless your provisions! 😀 Yall have come so far and are almost there 😀 God Bless!!

  3. I check in on your blog on occasion, and I agree.. It is totally worth it. It seems for us the harder we try to escape this rat race, the more it sucks us back in. Satan threw another set back at us, but we will still achieve our goal, just have to alter some plans.. Like you we aspire to live in a small off grid home away from it all. Many Blessings to you!

    • I read yours as well <3 We can all do this!! The rat race is so very hard to escape from – and we know Satan likes to toy with us :-\ But our God is bigger 😀 I will be praying for your situation!! God Bless!

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