This pregnancy has been unlike any other. Besides the obvious – moving states again, camping for months, DIY’ing a house, job losses.
It is the first time I have been ready to be done being pregnant – like since halfway. I embrace being pregnant usually. Yes, heartburn and all! It’s amazing, it’s exciting, it lasts such a short time and then… it is gone.
But this time.
This time around, it has mentally been more about life lessons then physically growing a baby. One night was particularly difficult. I was so uncomfortable, baby stretching like mad, hips, back – you ladies know, flat painful. “Ugh, I can’t wait to birth and be done with this.”
Then one thought hit me hard – don’t wish this away, don’t take it for granted – isn’t that what this whole life change has been about?! To reduce all those unnecessary things, to make the focus more on those special, fleeting moments in life.
Since that night, I have focused more to make the conscious choice, multiple times a day sometimes, to change perspective. To be in the moment, to embrace if not enjoy every feeling – do not give this away, hold every thought captive.
Much like our journey with simplicity.
Some things are easy, pleasant – the gentle rolls of baby moving, the selling of unneeded and unnecessary items. Gentle expansions, gentle stretching. Not too hard. Other things are more difficult, painful – the sharp kicks to the ribs, stretching of the pelvis, learning to live without municipal utilities, living until the next cash infusion, continuing when others are outright negative. There is the calm – the known, the comfortable, the easy. Usually directly preceding the fury of the storm – the birth, when everything that can go wrong does, what feels like the bottom before things start back up.
Then life is forever changed.
Congratulations! You made it through!
It’s easy to live in the wonderful times. The times of plenty, when everything is going good, the routines are set, there is no disruption. Hopefully we recognize those times, we see them for what they are, we live in them, cherishing them.
Its those other times – the rough times that we try to avoid. We wish would just pass. How many times have we said “I can’t wait for this to be over, to be past this”. Its in these times that we still need to embrace the experience. It is part of life, we grow. These times force us to look harder for those magical moments, search for the positives. They are there – if we look for them, maybe adjust our perspective a little.
“I have learned to be content whatever the circumstances. I know what it is to be in need and I know what it means to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation” Philippians 4:11-12
When the Apostle Paul wrote this, he was in prison. Likely not being treated well from what I know. And what does he say – “I have learned the secret”. Learned! The great Apostle Paul had to learn how to be content in every circumstance! Suddenly I don’t feel so bad for it not being an automatic change in me – or for backsliding so often.
Without the storm we wouldn’t appreciate the rainbow that comes after. And truth be told – no matter how hard the current storm, it could always be worse.
Don’t give away any moments in life.